HW 35 Luxus: Part 5

by Tom Gaylord
Writing as B.B. Pelletier

Part 1
Part 2
Part 3
Part 4

HW35
HW35 Luxus.

This report covers:

  • Barrel droop
  • First pellet
  • Next pellets
  • Bottom line

Before I begin, I must tell you that my wife, Edith, passed away yesterday, Sunday, July 26 at 10 a.m., Central. She was under sedation and unaware of what was happening.

Edith
Edith Gaylord will be missed.

Edith wanted me to tell you what happened. We actually talked about it last week. I am not in a frame of mind to write much these days, but I promised her the blog would carry on. Those of you who visit my socnets could help me by posting a comment regarding this, because I haven’t got the time to go there.

I said I would come back to this rifle and mount a scope because so many of you asked me to. Today is the day.

Barrel droop

If you remember, my HW35 Luxus has severe barrel droop, so mounting a scope is a challenge. I used a prototype UTG drooper scope base and mounted an AirForce 4-16X50 scope in 2-piece UTG Max Strength high rings. That put the scope too high for comfort, but it was the only mount I had at the time. I had to rest my chin on the comb to see through the scope.The HW35 Luxus has visible barrel droop

droop
The HW35 Luxus has visible barrel droop.

First pellet

The first pellet I tried was the one that did best in the test with open sights — the Qiang Yuan Training pellet. With open sights I was able to shoot 10 into 0.986-inches and 0.898-inches at 25 yards.

With the scope mounted I put 10 into 1.574-inches, but 7 of them are in 0.724-inches. From this target I learned 2 things. First, the rifle shoots the same with a scope and with open sights. And second, it is very sensitive to how it is held. If I played with the hold I am sure I could tighten the group up to equal the best group with open sights.

Qiang Yuan Training pellets
Ten pellets in 1.574 inches, but 7 of them are in 0.724 inches. The placement of the hand with the artillery hold is critical.

Next pellets

I tried Air Arms Falcon pellets, but after 7 shots the group grew to 2.148 inches and I stopped shooting. I also tried Crosman Premier light pellets with 4.55mm heads, but they scattered everywhere. The same pellet with a 4.54mm head landed 10 in 1.982-inches. That’s not a good group, but it does show the difference the head sizes can make.

Crosman Premier light
Ten Premier lites with 4.54mm heads went into 1.982 inches at 25 yards

Bottom line

My HW35 Luxus is very hold-sensitive! I’m sure I can make it shoot tighter, but I don’t think I want to try. This is a perfect gun for open sights and that’s how I will keep it from now on. And this is the last test I will do with this rifle.

163 thoughts on “HW 35 Luxus: Part 5

  1. I am very sorry to hear that Edith has left us. She was a wonderful lady. Please accept my most heartfelt condolences. I will pray for her, for you and your family.


  2. Aloha Tom,

    My sincerest condolences. Edith will really be missed not only on this blog but in the airgun community. I think I can speak for most of us that read your blog regularly that i would not in any way expect you to continue the blog for the next couple of weeks. You need to take as much time as you need.

    May Edith rest in eternal peace.

    Scott


  3. Wow!
    I’m so sorry B.B.
    Edith, we’ve been missing you forever already!
    Wish we could have helped you as much as you did others.
    You will be sorely missed
    Thank You for being there!



  4. My prayer is for you now, Tom. We have never met but I read your blog every day first thing. Edith recently responded to me about a Bronco question in much detail. Somehow I think I know both of you. I am so saddened about your loss. As for Edith, she is with God and now in eternal life waiting your arrival.
    God bless you!




  5. I am sorry to hear about her passing.
    Our prayers go out to you.
    I never met her or you, but I have long read your and her insights..

    We will miss her greatly..
    Ian


  6. Hi Tom. Very sorry to hear about your loss. Wish I was better with words, but our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. God Bless
    Harvey and Berniece


  7. HI BB.

    I am very sad to hear of Edith passing. A horribly sudden event. There is no way we can know what you are going through, but know that we all wish you the best.

    Regarding the blog, I am sure we would all lend a hand in any way that we could. Tell us if there is something you need.

    Rob


  8. BB
    I can’t think of the right words that I can say.

    So sorry. She has always been a wonderful lady from what little time I have known her here on the blog.

    Again sorry to hear BB.




  9. B.B., I am so sorry to hear this. I must have been expecting a very different outcome, because it feels like the proverbial ton of bricks. “…will be missed” is an understatement, even to someone who knew her only from this blog: some people are special enough that you can just see it shining out from between their written words.

    Wishing you all the strength and peace you need, B.B.


  10. Sad news about Edith`s passing out thoughts and prayers are with you Tom.

    May today’s tears of heartfelt sorrow
    Be signs of hope for a brighter tomorrow
    And the pain and grief that we are feeling
    Give way to joy through God’s merciful healing
    For goodbye is not ‘gone forever’
    It’s only for a while
    And when we get together again
    We’ll share in one big smile.


  11. BB
    My most heartfelt condolences go out to you as we all were hoping for a full recovery for her and had not considered that she would not come thru in good health. We all are here to help in any way possible and only wish we could be there for you more than just on the blog as I wish I had had the chance to meet her in person as she always had a spunky and pleasant reply to any issue or problem she was required to deal with on the blog and that will be missed ever so greatly by me and all other I am sure.

    Please take whatever time you need to deal with and handle the affairs in front of you as it will be the most difficult thing in your life ahead of you now and we will be at your side every step with the support you need so as we all have said before put your wife and you first in this so sad a time and the lord will make his place for her ready to be forever in peace and looking over us all from here on out.

    My deepest sympathy and sorrow go out to you in your time of need and GOD bless you as he already has blessed her.

    BD


  12. Have been an ardent follower of your blog for quite sometime. Inadequate knowledge prevented me from posting or commenting all these days. At a loss for words…………..May God give you courage to face up to this loss. Condolences to you and your family. Bit please do remember something………..she might have physically left you but will always be watching over you.




  13. Everyone,

    I said I was not in a frame of mind to write much, but here it is 2 a.m. and I can’t sleep, either. Yes, my loss is devastating. I used to kid with Edith that I was going to go first, of course, and she could just go on writing the blog for a long time — as long as she didn’t tell anybody. She was me and I was her, which is how it’s supposed to be, I guess.

    Edith and I were married 33 years — and both of us were on our second spouse. Her birthday is August 8, when she would have been 67 — the same as me. Then I turn 68 on August 29, so for three weeks each year I told everybody that were were the same age.

    The doctor heading up her treatment prepared her brother and me for this possibility. Of course nothing can prepare you for when it actually happens. I didn’t go into the details of her case, but toward the end she was in serious condition. There was only a very small chance for survival. Naturally I clung tight;y to that chance and found myself making promises to the Lord about what I would do if only He would spare her. Then I caught myself and told Him I would do those things I promised without conditions. You don’t make bargains with the Lord of Hosts!

    As several of you have said, Edith is now with God and she is happier than she has ever been. That is the thought that keeps me from losing control when I reflect on what has happened.

    I probably won’t respond to your comments but please know that I do read all of them.

    Thank you all,

    B.B.


    • B.B., as my heart sinks I can only imagine how you feel. These things that are completely out of our control. The bond we seek to hold on to. Yes, you know Edith is now with God and I know you want to join her there. Of course, you will. Now, I pray for you, for your continued faithfulness until the time of reunion and restoration. ~ken


    • B.B.
      I’m so very sorry to hear of Ms. Edith’s passing. I was so optimistic that she would be cured & back soon. I felt such a shock & profound sadness when I just read your words. Believe me Sir, there are tears my eyes as I write & I never knew her but it feels as if I have lost a family member. How much more must you feel devastated. I was so sure the Lord would spare her for us, but then, Gods ways are not man’s ways. I’m sure He has a plan for you & as you said she is definitely happy in Heaven, from where she is in a much more powerful position to help you & prepare your place when the time comes. May the Lord & Ms. Edith give you all the strength & courage to carry on. Please know that all of us on this Blog are your family & we love you both and are so grateful for the excellent education you have given us over the years, and not just about airguns but how to be better human beings. May God Bless you & help you in this time of EXTREME grief.
      I had a very uneasy feeling all yesterday but couldn’t pin it. Now I know why.
      Errol


    • Mr. Tom,
      This is Jeanne, Bob’s stepdaughter. I am so sorry that Ms. Edith passed. She was more of an aunt to me than any other and you like an uncle. I wish that I could have came with Bob and mama the weekend of the 4th when they came to see you guys, I wish I knew then what I know now. Every time I think of Edie, I cry. Christmas is not going to be the same without her. I am very worried about you. I hope that you take it easy and not get very stressed over this devastating loss. I wish your sisters lived closer to you to help you through this time of need. If you ever need someone to talk to you can get my number from Bob. I learned when my eldest sister passed in 2009 that it helps alot to talk about it, even if you don’t really want to. Please take care of yourself.



    • Very sad news to hear about Edith passing away. I have read her helpful replies in the sections where owners make comments about air guns they own or want. She was very helpful.
      I’m on my second wife now and she is a blessing to me.
      B.B. No need to reply to this comment because I would not want you to go about searching your heart for your feelings about Edith here in October 2015. God Bless both of you.



  14. Tom,

    My deepest of sympathies. May God give you all the strength you need from minute to minute and day by day.

    While I have only been here several months, I will miss her tenacity and no BS approach. It showed clearly in her behind the scenes work and especially when she posted a reply to one of our comments,…”setting us straight”..on what we thought to be right at the time. Would love to say I never got in her “cross hairs”,..but alas,…I did. Always respectful and always factual. A reality check if you will.

    Praying for peace and strength, however you find it.

    Chris


  15. BB
    I to am in my second marriage and my wife and me also share the short time of being the same age as my birthday is January 15th and hers is December 31st so for the little over two weeks every year we to are the same age and everyone celebrates her birthday every year.

    Just remember she will always be at your side and waiting for you to join her in eternal peace where age is of no concern.

    BD



      • BB
        I wish it was as well as I have lost parents but never a spouse so I can only imagine the heavy heart you are dealing with right now and it is at the most special times that it seems to happen and only serves to sadden us that much more. My current wife and I have been together 17 years and married 15 this September 8th so while not the 33 that you and Edith were it still makes me give prayer for her by my side every day. Please know that Edith is still with you in your heart and will be from this day forth.

        We are all here with you so know that we share your grief and loss as she was a special lady to us all in her very own way.

        GOD bless you in your time of need.

        BD


      • You gotta stick it out with the rest of us codgers 🙂
        Good call on not scoping the 35! That rear aperture sight ain’t cheap but it sure would round it out nice!


      • BB,

        I had a professor who had Guillain Barre Syndrome. He talked about it. How it felt, and that it was scary to have–but never mentioned it could be fatal. So, Edith`s passing has really taken me by surprise. I am sure it must feel overwhelming to you.

        I think it is totally understandable to have a mind to follow our loved ones. I can imagine having that sense when I think about those people who have been there for me. The thing is, at times like these, we honor our loved ones by doing what They would want. I am sure that Edith would want you to grieve, and then be not only strong–but also to find joy again. As soon as possible. You have more friends than any other person I actually know in any way. I hope that is some comfort.

        I’m taking Ediths passing as a reminder to show my loved ones how much I care. I’ve given my wife and daughter an extra hug. A little longer than they understand. I can thank Edith for that reminder.

        Rob

        .


  16. B.B.,

    I am so sorry to hear of Edith’s sudden departure. I trust she went quietly into that good night. I will sorely miss her and the team you two made. However, grieving is for the living not the departed. I am confident you will be back in the saddle and shootin’, rootin’ and tootin’ again very soon. That is the greatest honor we can pay to Edith. Continue to faithfully follow and support you and this great sport we have all come to love as much as Edith did.

    My prayer’s continue to be with you B.B. God bless and try to get some rest yourself!

    G&G



  17. It’s impossible to find the right words at a time like this, but you have my sympathy. I hope I can be as strong as you if my wife of 37 years ever passes on before me. Once again, my prayers and condolences.





  18. BB,

    I don’t know what to say. I saw there was another HW35 report that I was looking forward to, but then I read what was below the headline and the rifle didn’t seem all that interesting any more.

    I’m sorry for your loss and I wish you the best!

    Stephan


  19. Tom, so sorry. Edith’s graciousness was evident daily in her blog comments and in her emails. Know that she will be missed and remembered by many. Prayers and condolences.


  20. B.B.

    Please accept my deepest sympathy for your loss.
    Edith was about the only person I know of with the capability to shepherd a bunch of old codgers like us from one blog format to another without losing any on the way.
    God bless her.

    Dave


  21. Oh No, like others have said this is not what we were expecting to see here. BB, please accept my sincerest and heartfelt condolences on your loss. For what it’s worth, the company of friends and neighbors will be of great help in the coming days.

    Kevin in CT


  22. Tom

    It’s times like this that illustrate how feeble words are to describe emotions. I keep writing stuff, then deleting it, because it sounds so trite and insufficient.

    I never met Edith in person, but I loved her, and continue to. I can’t imagine the pain you are going through now, but please keep in mind that you are loved too.

    Also keep in mind that your very loyal fanbase has an enormous archive of blogs to read while you deal with your loss, due in no small part to the hard work and dedication of dear Edith. Take care of yourself, we will be here when you feel like writing again.

    Thank you for including the photo of Edith above. She is absolutely radiant and I can’t imagine a better picture to illustrate her personality.

    Now if you will excuse me, I have more crying to do.

    God bless you both.

    Sincerely,

    Slinging Lead




  23. Tom,
    I am so sorry for your loss. Edith was a wonderful person, and I learned so much from her over the years in simple exchanges on this blog – the best of which always had nothing to do with airguns. She will be missed by all of us.

    Alan


  24. Tom, what a tragedy. We share your loss. She was enthusiastic, witty, and genuinely shared our interest – answering every question and here to correct us all in her own stylish manner. It’s a sad day. I recall meeting her, and that photo shows the good spirit we enjoyed. Cheers to you Edith Gaylord, and rest in peace.



  25. Tom,

    Others have already said it, but from me too, I deeply saddened to learn that Edith has died. She was the force behind the blog I think, keeping things going and making sure things ran right. I will miss her greatly and my deepest sympathy goes to you, who will miss her most.

    Jim





    • David
      Thank you so much for sharing that insight into BBs mentality with us as if I am any different, ( Just ask my wife).

      The similarities between us are so evident in my mentality as I to scour the routes of trips my wife and me take for sporting good store and shops in search of that one item that no one else will have.

      I just had eye surgery Friday in Birmingham, Al which is 60 miles from home and we don’t get over there much and I stayed the bight since I had to go back Saturday morning to have the patch removed from my eye and Bass Pro Shops is “on the way home ” so of course we stopped as I was looking to buy the Caldwell lead sled shooting rest that was on sale and three hours later I had my lead sled and some pellets, shirt and shorts, Machete, a new savage A17 HMR rifle and ammo and a brick of practically extinct 22lr.

      The doctor told me to not sign any contracts or go shopping for a car or other expensive items right after anesthesia but never said not to go to a sporting good store so I did follow doctors orders and can only say I have a wife very much the same as Edith as she was right there with me buying her own assortment of goodies that she had found she could not live without as well. All in all we spent 800 plus dollars so maybe I should have taken the doctors orders a little more broadly.

      So much for impulse shopping.

      BD


  26. I’m both shocked and saddened for your loss, Tom, and our loss, as well. My prayers are for you as you miss Edith so much in this life.

    Randy Smith
    AirGumby


  27. BB,
    My earliest record of reading the blog goes back to 2008, but I’m sure I was reading it before then, and I have read it every day. I can only add my words to what has been already eloquently said, much better than I could say. May the Lord give you comfort in this difficult time.
    Michael in Georgia


  28. This blog is usually the first thing I read every weekday morning. I don’t write that much, but I must say this mornings news brought tears to my eyes.

    Have Strength, Tom


  29. Tom,

    I am really sorry to hear that Edith is no longer with us. Sorry and shocked… and devastated. It happened so fast and without warning.

    My deepest condolences to you. Please know that you have a huge community of people that are here for you.

    Take care.

    Hank


  30. Tom,
    Please accept my heartfelt condolences. I was remembering the time I spoke with Edith on the phone. Seems a hundred years ago, back before the internet. I placed an order for the airgun letter subscription and the R1 book. I told her how much I valued what you are doing, and she was very kind and happy to hear it. I still feel the same way.
    Rob


  31. Tom,

    Very sorry for your loss. I lost my father after 23 days in ICU last month. It has been a tough summer to say the least.

    I’m glad I got to meet Edith at the Texas show last year however briefly.

    Again my condolences,
    Mark N




    • Tom,

      I’ve never felt the need to comment or even register until now.

      I’m so sorry for your loss Tom. Our thoughts and prayers are with you. May God comfort you in this difficult time.

      Jon



  32. B.B.

    Tom, I am greatly saddened by the passing of your beloved wife and soul mate, Edith, she was truly a jewel. There are many people on this blog, much more eloquent than I and there is nothing more that I could add that has not already been said. I wish to offer you my deepest sympathies for your great loss. We will all miss her greatly.

    Sincerely,
    Bugbuster


  33. That was a shock. I’m really sad to hear this. I lost my Mom this summer but losing your wife is just terrible. Hang in there. She is with the Lord and just fine now.

    Mike



  34. Tom, so sorry to read that Edith has passed away. My sincere condolences to you and family. Reading your blog while sipping a cup of coffee has been my daily ritual for the past year. I always enjoyed reading Edith’s no nonsense comments, she will be missed.

    I admire your fortitude in continuing the blog. I am also 67 and have been married to my high school sweatheart for almost 48 years. I can’t even imagine life without her.

    Gerry



  35. A Elegy for Edith

    For death there are no words
    It comes silent or screaming
    for each of us
    Always there, perhaps
    the spur that drives life
    The absolute so ignored

    For death there are no words
    It remains the last, unquenchable frontier
    a door, a wall, a portal
    Inexplicable that life can actually leave
    though perhaps it just transforms
    We are voiceless before it

    For death there are no words
    They who have gone beyond are past the journey, the pain
    we who remain
    bear the burden, the emptiness
    Incomprehensible, the echoing of presence
    that light no longer here

    For death there are no words
    Though we still here shuffle about
    the thought of remembrance
    a balm of healing
    The platitude of time passing
    the only mantra of solace

    Death comes, yet life remains – triumphant
    Matter is neither created nor destroyed
    It simply returns to energy
    to light which is infinite

    Thus we are left with the oldest injunction
    carry on
    carry on

    Keep on, carrying on

    Robert Sorrels
    07/2//2015

    Tom: I have a perhaps 2-part blog on transitioning to air pistol equivalents as an aid to improving firearm performance. If it would help give you breathing room, let me know.


  36. I’ve been reading your articles for the past 20 years. Edith answered my questions a few times. She was a kind soul. She will be missed.

    As my late uncle Joseph would say, ‘ World is a guest-house and people
    are the guests’.


  37. Tom,

    I am absolutely heartbroken to hear of your loss. There is so much I would like to say, but I am having the most difficult time finding the right words to say it right now.

    Edith is one of the most phenomenal woman I have ever known.

    I am so incredibly lucky and honored to have had the chance to have Edith as my mentor and as my friend. I only hope that I can share even a fraction of the guidance and support with others that she has shared with me over the years. Without Edith, I would not be the same woman I am today and I am eternally grateful for that.

    Anyone who has had the chance to know Edith, work with her directly, communicate with her through the Blog or is fortunate enough to have read any of her writings is lucky to have witnessed such an amazing and talented person, passionate about everything she set her mind to.

    Please accept my heartfelt condolences. I will continue to keep you, Edith, the kitties and your families in my prayers.

    With much Love,
    Elise


  38. BB,

    I’ve only been reading your blog for about a year but you and Edith already seemed like long time friends. Had to go wipe away some tears so that I could see to type and tell you how sorry I am for your loss. My own wife tells me, “When the day comes, think about some of the good times, and try to smile…”

    Jim
    Chapel Hill, NC


  39. Tom

    I don’t know any way to express how badly I feel about your loss . This has been about the worst way I can think of to start the week for me when it does not directly involve my own personal life .

    twotalon


  40. Tom,

    I am trying to look at my screen right now as tears are streaming down my face.

    I am so, so terribly sorry for your loss of Edith. She was a wonderful woman, and she was taken from you and this world far too soon.

    Try to take some comfort in the knowledge that she will not have to go through the painful recovery you described earlier. But of course, you must be experiencing all kinds of grief right now.

    Like the rest of us who regularly post here, I think of the two of you as friends. My prayers are with you,

    Michael




  41. Tom,
    My deepest sympathy for you and your family.
    I truly appreciate all your wife has done for the your blog and the airgunning community.
    Be assured you are in my thoughts and prayers.

    Todd aka Airgunner66




  42. I am so sorry B.B., I thought things were going better since she was getting treatment, I’m at a loss for words. You and Edith and your families are in my thoughts and prayers.


  43. I tend to be a pretty stoic kind of guy, but I am reading these comments through tears.
    I feel that the spouse of a good friend has passed. Though I have met neither your or Edith I feel that someone near and dear has left me.
    Condolences Tom.




  44. A bright light has gone out,, and the world is lessened by it’s passing.

    Please know that I you are in my thoughts,, while the pain is yours to bear,, I can only hope that it is eased a bit by the sharing of it with so many.
    Ed Leeper


  45. I have come to really know and love Edith through her conscientiousness, caring heart, and clever wit. I am so sorry, Tom, for the never-ending ache that you are now living.
    Bill


  46. B.B., I don’t have the words. I pray God’s peace for you and yours. I’ve never met Edith (or you for that matter), yet I feel like I know you both just from reading all the blogs. I know She was a Great Woman. The world has lost much.
    Doc



  47. Tom
    Im sadden to hear of your wifes passing. I can share your pain as I lost my wife in 2003 I cried a lot and I don’t think that’s a bad thing. My docter gave me pills for depression and I threw then in the trash. I think the anti depressents are a bad thing. I met Edith at the Texas show last year. She was a first Lady. I met you there also. You probably don’t remember from Texas but Im the guy that kept bugging about a trade for your El gamo 300 in Arkansas and finally bought it. Im sure you know it but I want to remind you anyway that for you life goes on an you are blessed to have this blog to keep your mind busy.Praise the Lord Edith is in a better place and she was not long suffering.
    Im looking forward to seeing you again at the Texas show. GOD BLESS YOU I will keep you in my prayers for a speedy recovery from your loss and pain.


  48. Tom

    Do you have a charity or other organization to accept memorial donations?

    I’m shaken by your sudden loss. I’d like to do more. Suggestions are welcomed.

    Hang in there.

    Jim


  49. BB
    When I woke up this morning Edith was the first thing that popped in my mind. Then I was walking down the hallway and was looking at the pictures hanging on the wall. It made my mind race through a bunch of memories.

    May be some of the new readers won’t know this but I know the older reader’s know. Do you still have that picture hanging in your office of when Edith and you and Mac was dressed up as the 3 stooges? That picture popped in my mind and reminded me of how much fun you 3 had together.

    I use to have a hard time looking at the pictures of my mom and dad after they passed. But now when I walk down the hall and see their picture I’m so happy that I have them pictures.

    BB just keep remembering the good times you had.


  50. We were shocked and saddened to hear of your wife’s passing. We were hoping she would recuperate. You have our very sincere and deep sympathy on such a tragic loss. Our best to you and your family. Our prayers are with you.

    Jim and Susan



  51. Mr. Gaylord:
    My deepest sympathies are with you at this time of your loss. May Edith’s memory be a blessing to all those she knew. And may your beloved wife’s memory bring you comfort and peace. My thoughts and prayers are with you as you mourn.
    Shalom
    William Schooley



  52. Nooo! I checked the blog this morning and saw that Edith had passed. I looked again to make sure my eyes were not fooling me. I looked again because it couldn’t be true! I looked again, and it was still there…

    I am so sorry for your loss Tom! I can’t imagine.

    Daniel


  53. Tom,

    there are no words I can say or write on this most mournful of occasions but here is something that may support you in your hours of grief:

    Unable are the Loved to die
    For Love is Immortality,
    Nay, it is Deity—

    Unable they that love—to die
    For Love reforms Vitality
    Into Divinity.

    Emily Dickinson

    Fred from the Democratik Peoples Republik of New Jersey


  54. BB, that was a real shock to read that. I never thought it would happen like that so suddenly. I can’t even imagine how hurt you must be. From what I have heard from others and have read here, I know what a great person she must have been. You and your family will be in my prayers. We are here for you BB, and I pray that your heart will heal quickly.


  55. Tom,

    I am deeply saddened by this news that I woke up to today. As everyone else has said, there are no adequate words with which to express our thoughts about your loss.
    All that I can really offer is to share with you part of a personal conversation I had with my own wife last November when I was diagnosed with stage 4 metastatic esophageal cancer There is a brief part of the conversation that I’m willing to share with you as I believe that it is applicable. I waited a few days for the full impact of the diagnosis to sink in. After that, and much thought, we sat arm in arm as she listened (tearfully) to what I began to say. The part that I wish to share with you Tom, to offer you for your OWN consideration, is as follows…

    “When ‘the day’ comes, and it will come, there’s something that I want you to do, that I need for you do… i NEED to know that after your initial mourning eases that you will continue to be ‘you’. I need to know that you’ll still smile at the things we’d shared together…That you’ll continue with the things we have enjoyed together. I want you to continue being the wonderful lady that I fell in love with. The interests that we shared are still there. I want to be able know that you’ll continue to be that same beautiful, smiling, loving person that attracted me to you when we first met. I need to know you will continue being you because I will still be there with you doing, sharing, and enjoying WITH you the things that we’ve always done together.
    Although your eyes may not see me and your ears might not hear me, I have no doubt that your heart and your mind will be fully aware of my continuing presence by your side, loving you and sharing with you the things we’ve always done together. There’s no need to ‘wish’ or to ‘hope’ that we’ll be re-united again sooner rather than later, because I will be continuously by your side loving and enjoying and sharing as we have always done. In time we’ll re-unite, but it’ll when Our Father decides, as HE knows best. I am a patient person and I know you are too.
    I guess what I’m saying is that I need you to continuing YOU. “.
    Tom, it wasn’t easy for me to share this with anyone, but u chose to do so, (after several hours’ deliberation), in the hope that it may help you even just a little. You dear and loving wife Edith hasn’t, and won’t leave your side. Seen or not, heard or not, she’ll continue to engage in and to enjoy WITH you the very things that that you’ve always shared and enjoyed together.
    The only other thing that I can say is that I pray for you, and for Edith, and for you BOTH. And now please let me close my comment and prayer in the name of THE FATHER and of THE SON and of THE HOLY SPIRIT. Amen.

    Denny.


    • Denny,

      I appreciate your telling me that. I do understand what it means.

      Right now I am still overly emotional, not just because of her death but because as her husband I have to sign all the papers, make all the arrangements and talk to all the people that are involved in the process of dying. So this is an open wound that won’t close easily.

      But your part about remembering the good times is very poignant. I found myself crying today when I remembered how happy we both had been about something very trivial.

      There is no doubt that Edith will remain inside me all the days of my life.

      Thank you,

      Tom



  56. Tom, I am so sorry to hear about Edith. I only know you both from reading this blog over the past couple years, but it sounds like the two of you were best pals – just the way a husband and wife should be. I pray that God will bless, strengthen, and encourage you and your family through this time.


  57. Tom,

    Today’s comments were a 6 “parter” all by themselves,…6 as in the # of times I had to get up, do something else, blow my nose and wipe my eyes,….

    We should all be so lucky to have so many freinds in such a hard time. Even 1/100th.

    Of all the comment’s, 2 words stuck out…..

    “Carry On”

    Some how, some where,…all I pictured was your dear Edith giving you a swift Texas sized boot right in the the ol’ BB “keester” for anything less. Sorry if out of line. That’s just the feeling that came over me.

    Prayer’s for strength and all required to get through these next few days,….Chris


  58. B.B.,
    I am so very sorry for your loss. I never had the pleasure of meeting Edith in person but sensed through reading your blogs, written over the years, that she was very special. I pray for God to bring you comfort in your grief and for him to also guide and direct you through this hard time.



  59. BB,

    Tom,

    My heart weeps for you. I was so happy to finally meet your beautiful wife, Edith, when picking up the R1 and was happy to have my son, Wyatt meet you guys with me. She had something special about her that I immediately picked up and could also sense the love between you two just seeing the two of you together. From all the posts and articles that I have read over the years, she always had comments to make here and there and were always fun to read. Such a wife, that was also interested in your hobby, wow, what a gift.

    Yes, we all share in your grief and will miss her terribly. I am praying for you that God fill you with calm and peace and help you to rest. Know that you have friends in this community that love you and will be willing to help in any way.

    You and your wife have done so much for the airgun community, probably more than I even know. I am forever grateful to have met you both and thank you for your continued gift of insight and sharing your love and passion of air guns. This is a small sport, and I see it more like a family and especially those that have followed your blogs.

    May we all reach out across the miles and internet and give you our heart felt hugs.

    Bryan Enoch


  60. BB
    It was with shock and sadness to hear of Edith’s passing. You two had a relationship that transcended everyday husband/wife roles. You two were partners, and collaborators as this blog revealed everyday. When you were off to an airgun show, Edith was able to field most questions readers directed to you. I got the impression this blog was as much her life as it was yours.
    . Edith’s legacy is something all readers of this blog will miss dearly. At this time, I can only reiterate the sadness all readers have expressed though their comments. I admire your fortitude for posting this blog today. It can’t be easy, however the best way to honour Edith’s legacy would be to keep the blog going.
    Again, my deepest sympathy
    Ciao
    Titus



  61. BB,
    My heart felt condolences on the passing of your dear wife. I feel like I actually knew her. I think I may have been one of the last persons to have had e mail contact with her re a password change. I think the very next day BB said she went to the hospital. A big loss to the airgun world and a sad one to BB.


  62. I’m so sorry for you Tom.

    I never met your wife but she had me pegged. I don’t recall what the exact question was but her response was if your in to guns and old tractors you’ll fit right in. Boy I thought she had been reading my mail.

    When I get to heaven I’m going to make sure and look her up.


  63. Oh my god, I’m so sorry to hear about Edith. She will be greatly missed. She was part of our “little” online family of wackos.
    Even without the airguns I always felt like she was an exceptional being.
    You have my deepest sympathies.

    J-F




  64. Tom,
    Our deepest condolences to you sir. Our thoughts and prayers are with you, Edith and your entire family during these difficult times. Know that you are never alone. You have a LARGE extended family that can help carry the burden for you. Your GTA Forum family will hold you and Edith up in prater my friend.
    GOD Bless,
    Dave




    • Ezman604,

      Thank you for that link. I read every comment. The guy who said that Edith helped me become B.B. Pelletier hit the nail on the head! Without her there would be no me.

      I tried to register as a guest there so I could answer them there, but the software refused to allow me to register. I am not very computer literate as Edith was my IT guru. Would you please tell all of them that I appreciate their sentiments?

      Thank you.

      Tom Gaylord


      • Tom,
        I posted your thanks to everyone in the thread. I’m glad you had the time to look at the heart felt comments from your GTA family. As you have been here for us for so many years, we are here for you. Please feel free to contact me and I’ll gladly help you set up a login for the forum. We would be honored to have you join us. Your cohorts Jim Chapman and Rick Eusler have been members for a while now.
        GOD Bless,
        Dave


  65. Tom,

    I am so very sorry to hear of Edith’s passing. I’ve only been here about a year, but have formed such a warm view of you both as I’ve been reading all your past blogs. Just a few weeks ago I had emailed Edith some pictures for you to look at. She replied so quickly, and so politely – as in all her posts I’ve seen on here. I know you have lost your best friend, but hope you can take some comfort in knowing she lives on in the hearts of those she touched on here. May God give you strength and comfort in your time of need.

    God bless.

    Jim M.




  66. I’m sorry for your loss. You are blessed to have had a wife that you got a long with so well and shared and appreciated your hobbies.

    I’m only 33 and have only been married 5 years but I want a marriage like that. The old people that still walk on the beach together and enjoy each others company- I think that is wonderful and that, along with true heroism, is not honored near enough in postmodernity.

    Once again I’m sorry for your loss. I’ve read “A Grief Observed,” and cried while reading it but that doesn’t compare.

    We are blessed by your honesty and integrity in your struggle with the Lord through this.

    And he said, “Naked I came from my mothers womb and naked shall I return for the Lord gives and the Lord has taken away, blessed be the name of the Lord.” In all this Job did not sin or charge God with wrong.


    • Sam,

      Thank you for that.

      I have never been tested like Job, but this current time is almost more than I can endure. I just hope there is enough of Edith still with me that I can continue to be B.B. Pelletier.

      Tom Gaylord


      • Mr. BB, sir, you can & will. I was in the saddle all day yesterday. Ms. Edith was with me & she didn’t hafta wear a helmet. I feel you my friend. Shoot/ride safe.
        Beaz


  67. BB,

    Edith and you were much in my thoughts and prayers this weekend. I lost my mom in similar circumstances. Like my mom, Edith awoke to Eternal Joy as we all hope to someday. You have a large family that feels your grief. We are here for you.

    Brent


  68. Hello BB,

    I am saddened to hear of your loss. I have been reading your blog for almost the last decade and have come to know you and your late wife through your writing. This past year has seen the passing of several of my close relatives, but none as close or as personal as a spouse. I would like to say that I know how you feel, but a loss such as this for you would not be served by such a statement. My heartfelt condolences and prayers go out to you and your family.


  69. BB,
    I’ve been off normal schedule/routine for last week or so, so I just saw this. There is really nothing I can say that would express how sad I feel for your loss and how much I’m going to miss knowing Edith is somewhere on earth with us. Even though I never met her personally, she was as good a person as the best I’ve ever been around.

    It must be hard going on with the blog right now, but I know Edith would be pleased. She went beyond the call of duty keeping it going when you were sick and was a very important component, so maybe it is a way you also can keep her with you. If you have anything I can do to help, just ask!

    I don’t know if I will cry outwardly or not, but I’m close. Anyway, I’m probably making even less sense than normal, so I’ll give up for now.


  70. B.B., I am so sorry for your loss of Miss Edith, a truly awesome lady; I have no words to give you that are better than these, my favorite verses of hope; may God grant you the peace that surpasses all human understanding (in His own good time):

    “ Most assuredly, I say to you,
    he who hears My word

    and believes in Him who sent Me
    has everlasting life,

    and shall not come into judgment,
    but has passed from death to life .”

    —– Jesus, St. John’s Gospel 5: 24

    Absent from the body = present with the Lord

    Therefore we are always confident ,
    knowing that while we are at home in the body ,
    we are absent from the Lord .

    For we walk by faith , not by sight .
    We are confident , yes , well pleased rather
    to be absent from the body
    and to be present with the Lord .

    The 2nd Letter of St. Paul
    to the Corinthians 5: 6 – 8

    Jesus answered and said to them ,
    “This is the work of God ,
    that you believe in Him whom He sent .”

    The Gospel according to St. John 6 : 29

    “ All that the Father gives to me
    will come to Me ,
    and the one who comes to Me
    I will by no means cast out .”

    —– Jesus, the Gospel according to St. John 6:37

    Jesus said to her,
    “Your brother will rise again.”

    Martha said to Him,
    “ I know that he will rise again
    in the resurrection at the last day.”

    Jesus said to her ,
    “ I am the resurrection and the life.
    He who believes in Me,
    though he may die, he shall live .
    And whoever lives and believes in Me
    shall never die.”

    —–the Gospel according to St .John 11: 23 – 26


  71. Dear Tom,

    I’ve followed all your writings from the very early Digests with a young you and your young kids pictured to the R1 book and all your magazine articles from all the way down under in Australia, still to this day I enjoy reading those books as they take me back when we were all so into experimenting with our springers.

    During those times I’m sure Edith would have been so supportive of all your great work in educating all of us, I’m very saddened for you and your family.

    A prayer is sent from the other side of the world to you.

    Take care,

    Andrew Teleki


  72. I can’t find words to express my sadness. Although I never had the pleasure of meeting either of you in person, I feel like I have known you for a long time. I just can’t imagine how you feel and I don’t know what to say. My deepest condolences and prayers for you and your family.


  73. Oh, Tom…my deepest condolences the loss of your beloved Edith. Words are at a loss and perhaps even meaningless at a time like this. Please know my prayers are with you at this very difficult time.

    Peacefully, sleep comes to a dear beloved heart.
    Quietly, we understand the time has come to part.
    Tenderly, the love shines on — a never-ending light.
    Gratefully, we feel its warmth and say, “Sweet dreams, good night.

    May Creator give you strength & courage…Jeff E.


  74. Hello Uncle Tom,

    Sorry to hear about Aunt Edith.

    My heart goes out to you and your family,I do not always know what to say to someone that lost a loved one.

    May the LORD give you strength and keep you save in a time like this.

    Best regards,

    Silentsniper7 aka Cougar94


  75. TOM,
    So sad to hear that Edith passed away, may she rest in peace. Please accept my sincere condolences. After fighting your own health problem not so long ago and now the passing away of your life partner I can imagine just how hard it has been. May the good Lord be with you and bless you in the days ahead.

    Ejwills.


  76. Tom,
    I am so very sorry to hear of Edith’s passing…
    She was a very nice person, and always willing to help.
    She shall be missed…
    I Wish you all the strenght in the world, for coping with this big loss.
    Mag ze Rusten in vrede (may she rest in peace in Dutch)

    Sebas
    From the other side of the pond


  77. Tom,
    I’ve been more of a closet fan of yours for the last 7 years, which just means I haven’t jumped into the airgun world with as much time and energy as I’d like – but I have read many of your reviews and responses of advice to casual readers/enthusiasts like me. And Edith responded on one or two occasions to something I wrote/asked about, and I remember wondering who this person was and how nice it was to be given the time and attention. Over these few years I tried to keep up with your blog,not always regularly, and realized a little more about Edith and her role with you and with Pyramyd. So, probably like a few others I didn’t come upon the news of her passing until today. I hope that – and I will pray – you will stay with us and keep Edith in your heart and mind (I know you will). It will help me/us when you mention her, to be reminded of the good spirit she presented every time she wrote something of advice, clarification, or correction. It was always, from my view, delivered with nothing but good spirit.

    Best to you, Tom – and thanks for bringing Edith to us.
    She was a gift.

    dw


    • dw,

      Welcome to the blog.

      You have spoken up, and I know there are thousands of readers like you who don’t care to comment, but who do enjoy the blog, just as you do. Yes, Edith was special. She was so much a part of me that I wonder whether I can continue to write as well from this point on. But I owe it to her and to all o0f you to give it my best attempt.

      Thanks for your kind words.

      B.B.


  78. Hello, sir. I’m a lad from a council estate in the grim North of England.

    This is my first time commenting here, but I’ve been reading your blog everyday for the last several months. I’ve also watched all your roundtable chats on the American Airgunner programme. I’ve had the Airgun Bug for a year, and I love it. You have to be very careful in police-state England, though, of course. I can’t just go plinking anywhere, and I have to always make sure my air rifle is under 12flbs.

    These are already dark days, politically and culturally. Everything is wrong and uncertain now. Everything is heading somewhere very bad. I won’t go into that, though. But in the darkening landscape of our once great, powerful nations, you and your wife Edith represented something to me. Something good, and kind, and gentle, and wise. How things used to be, before my time, but still known to me. You and your wife, and others of your wise nature and age, are the last generation who saw the time of goodness and sanity.

    I’m so very sorry. You’ve lost half of yourself. Your best friend, your companion and your love. Sir, I’m not religious. I don’t know if God or Heaven exists. But if it does, Edith will be there.

    Thank you.


    • Chris,

      Welcome to the blog.

      And thank you for all those nice things.

      As for God being real — I would bet my life on it. In fact — I have! 😉

      Thanks for your understanding of how hard things are for me right now. It’s all I can do to get up and face another day. But this blog is one of the few places where I have any solace — because of readers like you. So, thanks agin.

      B.B.


  79. Thank you Edith Gaylord,
    Thank you for your work.
    Thank you for your help.
    Thank you for your dedication.
    Thank you for your knowledge.
    Thank you for your kindness.
    Thank you for your time.
    Thank you for everything.
    We love you.
    We will miss you.


  80. Tom,

    Sorry to hear about Edith. She was a wonderful person who will truly be missed. I enjoyed reading about the trips that you two have taken and blogs that she wrote. She was a very cool lady who had a good sense of humor. God bless you and your family.

    AJ


  81. I was saddened to hear about Edith’s passing. It happens to the best of us, and I can only hope my golden years will be as amazing before my own departure. Take it easy on yourself, BB. Try to be at peace with God. I’ll bet the majority of your readers want to help during this difficult time, rather than demand more blogs. Really puts barrel droop in perspective…
    My condolences, and best wishes,
    BGD



  82. B.B.,

    I returned from a nice time in the woods and came here, looking for some good news. What a shock. I am devastated for you.

    You and Edith built something unique and wonderful here, this community of fascinating and knowledgeable people, this amazing island of civilized collegiality. It has enriched many lives, certainly mine. I think Edith knew what an important role she played in this, and I think she was rightly proud of what she accomplished.

    Having never met you or Edith in person, it’s clear that you were one of those special couples. True partners who were very happy together. This makes Edith’s passing especially sad for me.

    I don’t know how you’ll get through this, B.B. I know it’ll never be the same for you, but I hope it can be good again someday. Deepest condolences.

    -Jan


  83. Dear Tom……Like ‘Chris’ from here in the United Kingdom l send you my very deepest sympathy at your loss. Ever since 1996 when our Government decided to ban all forms of ‘real’ firearms and we had to revert to ‘Springers’ or CO2 powered guns, l have learnt so very much from your blogs. Like many other comments on this subject, l also felt that l knew Edith as a ‘real, living person’ and l also feel a deep, personal loss.
    May God Bless you
    Dr Barrie (United Kingdom)


  84. I hope you recover from your loss, I appreciated Ediths comments in the review sections and also in this blog. She was a smart but nice person and information she provided on my first .25 Hatsan I valued as I was new to online airgun buying and knowledge of those airguns. I will miss Edith as she always had good input and advice on both Pyrmyd air and this blog.


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